First of all, i wanna say sorry to KOMBUN UNJ because i didn’t join any challange held on December and January.
Second of all, i also need to apologize to my readers who emailed me but i didn’t reply right away, i promise to reply them all!
Here the story goes…
Now i am in the middle of deadlines, like really really dead. I don’t have time for watching movies/reading novels/even excercising. I don’t have time for breath!
Tomorrow i need to enter my thesis title at 8 am and the day after tomorrow i am demanded to collect my PKL report, my fail-PKL report. Next week i am going to present the report in front of faculty examiners, and after PKL things end i fight my thesis !!!!!!
Of all the rush i am going through, there is always a bad news. I suffer stone urinary bladder (Batu ginjal) since December. The symptomps were:
- i usually felt pain on my lower back since i was at junior high school
- i peed blood, or red-orange urine on the last three months
- i felt pain on the folds of my inner thighs
In Brief: I feel pain on my bladder. It pains at night, in the morning, even in the middle of the day while i am riding my motor cycle.
As the trial member in the family, i try to cure it by the infamous BPJS way which means i need to go to Faskes level 1 aka PUSKESMAS 3times until i get recommendaton letter to Public Hospital.
At first i thought i could endure the pain so i planned to follow it up after, at least, my PKL’s presentation end. But day by day the pain grows stronger and stronger. This isn’t going to be fun when suddenly i’m fainted from pain when the presentation takes place.
This morning i am gonna go to PUSKESMAS for the third session. I hope i get recommendation letter to RS Awal Bros since this hospital serves ESWL the best (based on my browsing on the internet and watching Dr OZ on youtube). But if it later turns out the doctor at PUSKESMAS gives me letter of recomendation to Public Hospital, i can not bear it any longer. I might go to RS Awal Bros without my health insurance-the infamous BPJS (that’s what our ministry said) to do ESWL.
I praise my self for everything that happened, every struggle, every pains endured. I am sure i can pass this test of life. I am totally sure. I just need a support maybe, just say “you can go through it all” or “everything will be okay, you are okey, and you always will be”.
I am so underpressure, too many weakpoints. But i must face it. I am strong woman. I shot them all.
